He's a marine so he isn't in town often and I know he would date me if I asked him, but I'm afraid to be in a real relationship right now. The last few relationships I've had I knew would end and didn't matter, but I don't know if this one would, I could actually love him.
In a shallow light I've always convinced myself I couldn't care about him b/c I don't find him attractive, but I wonder if that's a lie I tell myself to keep from caring.
I don't want to be in a relationship if it's not where God wants me to be, but I don't know how to tell.
how do you know if you care or if you just are lonely and reach out to the one who cares